Monday, May 22,
2006
All I really want is to be loved
All I really want is to know that I exist, that I am okay, that
I am a valued part of the world and what I have to offer is worthwhile,
useful and honored.
All I really want from others is to be seen, recognized and accepted.
I want to feel close to many people; intimate with a few and able
to build solid bonds of partnership that will grow and propagate
love, whether it be through children or through mutual projects
that work to nurture and create and not to manipulate or destroy.
I want these things so badly that when I believe I don't have
them I become desperate to find new ways to fill the gaping lack
that seems to squeeze the very life from my cells, stirring an ancient
existential pain back into being.
When my eyes are open, I see that what I want, I already have,
always have had and always will have. When my heart is open, I can
look at everyone else with love and offer them all these things
that I myself cannot live without. And in giving them, I am fulfilled,
I am whole, and so happy to be alive.
While I can only share what I hear inside me, I do believe this
is the deepest truth of every man, woman, child and, especially,
every pornography amateur on the planet. |
