THURSDAY,
August 31, 2006
What could be wrong with that?
Afterwards, Christopher and I sat up for a minute and laughed
off the tension of our adventure. I kept my hands cupped... gently
holding onto his semen like it was too precious a thing to waste
and we both looked at it with tender appreciation. He teased that
guys were used to "getting it all over themselves" while
I was thinking of the life-giving potential of this simple substance,
in relation to some girlfriends who were trying desperately to get
pregnant with no luck.
I was also struck by the realization, later put into words but
a friend commenting to me on the blog and his own explorations,
that semen, like any other substance released by the human body,
is a part of us, and, he said, (so sweetly and innocently)... "What
could be wrong with that?"
For you Christopher, brave friend who allowed me to tell your
story and expose it in images, I'm sharing some of the comments
people wrote, mostly directly to you, to honour and encourage your
explorations:
"I think it far worse to have no sexual desires at all, rather
than one which may seem just a little beyond your personal boundary.
Never knowing is the real sin. Take that line, and stretch it, Christopher!
Desire is healthy, sex is healthy: be healthy. "
"Good for Christopher for being so open! He should really experience
a man if that's what he wants and needs. "
"Remember, you are not alone in your dilemma. Many individuals
are attracted to both genders as sexual partners... Take a chance,
relax. Take deep breaths and explore your being. Be it far better
to ask questions now than harbor doubts and fears for the rest of
your life. Know that your friends out here on the blog wish you
well! "
"Bestow gratitude & great-full-ness upon Christopher for
allowing the virtual viewers through correspondence & ART into
the sanctity & sanctuary of his life. Go Well. I Am Greatful.
"
"Many men can often feel that their sexual feelings towards
their own gender are a form of narcissism and this can bring up
a lot more pain and confusion on top of their original fears of
going against the grain and experiencing their homosexuality. "
"I know that as a male I am at times attracted to other males.
I believe that to be the human condition. I wanted to taste my own
cum so I did. Most guys I know when they were young tried to suck
themselves. Eventually I did suck another man's cock. It took a
few days to process but I was pleased that I did and I have done
it again since. No one is perfect; no one is perfectly heterosexual."
"So many of we men are unable to connect with the feminine
within us. As I've gotten older, this has become more and more important
to my own spiritual health and well-being. I am the better man for
it... "
"Thank you Christopher for allowing us to join you in your
exploration. The fact that you are giving yourself permission to
do so gives me more thought of doing the same thing with taboos
that I carry."
"WOW. A tremendous breakthrough. Often we experiment sexually
on our own because we feel it would not be understood by others.
That is true for me anyway. Fantasies are personal and never sound
the same when put into words or through the filter of another person.
Congratulations Christopher: For having the fantasy; for talking
about it; for moving towards the fulfilment of it and for allowing
us to be inspired because of your courage. In this forum, we are
likely more open to the reality that all healthy people have creativity
connected with our sexuality. Like Victoria, I too am encouraged
to moved forward in fulfilling fantasies of my own."
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